I never got to have that conversation. I lost my mother just as I became a teen. In her place were the most loving and caring Grandparents (parents) any kid could wish for Both in their late 60s, they took on a lot of responsibility. I did my best to be appreciative and stay out of trouble. There was mutual respect and love.
Near as my grandmother ever came to seeing my crossdressing self was a dress rehearsal for a womanless beauty pageant. My then girlfriend did the full deal, makeup, heels and her prom dress. There was a sense I felt that bordered on something just short of "whatever". It was never discussed later.
Any of you that may have had the above type discussion were fortunate. So many times I wish I had had the opportunity for full disclosure. Like going back in time, altering the past may have change everything in the future. So, I am Ok with the way my life progressed. Although my biggest regret is not bein more honest. First, with myself and with family. Many lost opportunities and a lot of concealing.
How abut you? Did you have an open discussion with your mother as a youth or adult? What reactions? We all share such similar events / experiences in our lives. Please tell us your experience.
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