Feminine Differential - Sometimes Physiological

Madden Girl
Playy Chunky Lace-Up Sneakers

Sigmund Freud allergically said, "Sometimes a sneaker is just a sneaker." Or was that a 'cigar'. 

Perhaps the most famous phrase attributed to Freud, however, there is little evidence that he actually did said it. My point is that some items of fashion are so utilitarianism and androgynous that only the wearer is cognizant of it's gender designation.  

What is interesting in my daily wardrobe; I have few male designated articles of clothing/apparel left. Somewhat intentional - Somewhat by happenstance.  

At work 

Early in my crossdressing days, every (few and far-between) dress-up events were well planned and executed outing. For conventions, I had elaborate spreadsheets prepared of outfits designated by morning, lunch and evening. Later in my crossdressing life, evening out to a club or support group meeting warranted days of planning and shopping to match dress, shoes, purse.  

No, I have not moved on. Being transgender is still an integral part of my internal operating system. It has, at the very minimum, complicated relationship and social interactions. Still I am proud of my activism and being what/who I am. Being transgender has added so much to my life; nothing ordinary going on here.   

My transgender life is no longer just a support group cocktail party or hiding in the back row at a piano concert.  I have worked as an administrative assistant, museum membership director, office manager, serve on several boards, and just for fun, work part time at a retail lingerie shop. I shop at the market, have Dr. visits, and recently upgraded my motorcycle as the person, "I AM".     

I strive for what is described below with my feminine differentials:

A Zen condition is a state of being that involves a calm attentiveness, where actions are guided by intuition rather than conscious effort. It can also refer to a state of mind where one is completely immersed in the present moment, practicing mindfulness in every action and thought. 

With the sneakers above, few if any will, notice that these are gendered female. I will know and enjoy the internal moment of being.