A Model From the UK
t hasn’t been easy, getting to know how to feel good about myself. Only when you truly hit rock bottom on the confidence front do you appreciate what a gift it is to be happy in your own skin. And I’m not entirely there yet, but I will be. There’s a part of me some days that still feels like vulnerable, self-deprecating 13 year old me, hating every second of it. But these moments pass, and more than ever I realise that without the lows, there are no highs. The real glow up wasn’t transitioning, or growing into myself, or being skinnier. The glow up was no longer focusing on how I looked, and switching instead to how I felt. This glow up was finally avoiding bad relationships, staying away from the scales, reminding myself daily that I’m a goddess, and being thankful for a body that gets me where I need to go. I stopped comparing myself. I stopped hoping to find happiness in hunger. And more than anything, I made sure to only give my energy to those who build me up, and they best believe I’ll be building them up in return.
For me, womanhood is ever-changing - it's a bridge that connects your relationship with the ever-changing version of yourself to your ever-changing relationship with life in that moment. Womanhood to me is finding comfort in the present, discovering your resources, and never forgetting your strengths. I ask myself 'what kind of me am I going to have to tap into today - am I a relaxed me, do I need to be bold, am I feeling good? Am I exhausted by everything? Who is going to try me today?' Just in the past year I feel I've gone from being a woman lost, to a woman found. I've been putting myself out there, saying yes to things - stepping out of my comfort zone, even as I did with this shoot. It's been baby steps from a stage of my womanhood which was desperately just trying to make sense of it all - to now entering a new stage of womanhood with a little more courage, clarity, and a whole lot of pride.
Women are not free unless ALL womxn are free! Let's talk about the women who are left behind sometimes, and stand up for each other when we need it. We're all unified, and it's something we need to embrace and celebrate more - together we have so much power and strength, and we are never alone! Let's realise this, and keep on building each other up - it's our freedom to do so, and it's what we deserve!